Tired of Back Pain

I am so tired of all of my back problems. I know a lot has been blogged about. I'm sick of hurting. I have had 3 back surgeries and finally got a new neurosurgeon. I've been waiting on trying to get an appointment with mine, but she couldn't get me in until March.

Update: I fell at 3:40 this morning. I hurt the leg I can feel and jarred my back even more. I've been in constant tears since then. I guess it's a good thing my appointment is with the neurosurgeon today. Hopefully I can get the surgery where the nerve at L5-S1 will be relieved so I can feel my left leg. I hate this and I am tired of crying from the pain and numbness and all the almost falls and the actual falls. I need thoughts, prayers, love and light. The drive is 4hrs round trip. I just hope I can manage to drive it.